Motivation, such an interesting word

Where does motivation come from?
Why am I motivated about some issues but not others?
Why can I not keep motivated to write my essay?

I have this final exam essay to write and I love the topic, I enjoy reading my data but I can not start writing.
I can not put my thoughts into words. I would rather spend my time watching TV, facebooking or reading something completely different.

I dont know what's wrong.

But I'm getting more and more settled in here in Copenhagen. I am starting to grow to this environment, learning my ways around and feeling comfortable at my home - love it!
The only thing missing is my motivation.
Both for my essay and also getting out in evening to meet friends and potentially start excercising.

So that's why I'm wondering about this word "motivation" and where it comes from. Why am I motivated about some things and not other?
What motivates me?
Interests = Motivation?

I love these questions as I think about the answers as I post them here.
Now I just have to really think, and hope to find my motivation and delegate it into my essay.
Let's hope :)
-with love-

Indulgence - where art thou

Sitting in my bed with no light except the one from the computer, playing “the first cut is the deepest” with Duffy I’m feeling a little blue ( and no – it’s not from the cold in my apartment ;) )
I have to give up one thing that really makes my day good. One thing I look forward while waiting for breaks in classes, my way to wake up – Coffee!

These past few days I have been having heartburn and feeling quite tired. But I have also been drinking way to much coffee ( according to some people ). And to find out if the coffee is making my feeling bad, I need to take a break.

It sounds very simple when I’m writing this where, the music has changed to Creed playing very melancholy song – fitting very well to my feeling.
But when I actually think about giving up something that means a lot, makes an impact and I enjoy it doesn’t seem so simple anymore.
Why do I feel like that when I know it’s better for me to leave it. It might be the thing that is causing my heartburns?
Why do we have such hard times giving up the bad habits but we find it so easy to take new ones on?

Listening to the words of Red hot Chili Peppers – we just have to give it away.
Why isn’t it just that simple when you realize what it is you should give away?

Sometimes I find the human mind, feelings and stubbornness a very interesting issue. I have so little knowledge when it comes to these things. But I do like asking questions, challenge and wonder why I’m so weak at some areas when I’m so strong in others.
What decides where I’m stronger and where I’m not as strong and where I am a complete mess?

I’m not happy as I go into a new day where I will leave out few things that I like. I love myself to much ( meaning I don’t want to do hard things even though they are best ) to take something from me – but now it’s asked by someone else, someone who cares about me enough to make me realize what I need to do. And then I need to listen.
I need to by extra strong this week – without my coffee ;)

-With love -

What's the meaning of your brands?

It's interesting to think about how some things become a big part of your daily routine and some would say an obsession as well.
Like for example facebook.
Now, since I got the internet home I feel the urge to check facebook out regularely and check out what my friends are doing and what is going on in the world.
Facebook is becoming my means of communicating.
Does that mean it's becoming a part of who I am?

One of my course in school is talking about corporate Brands and one of the question that was raised in class is do brands become what they are because of the consumer's consumption? Meaning - do companies create the brand or is it we, the people who buy it and therefore strenghten the signal they are supposed to mean for people?

I never thought I was a brand person, buying and using brands just because they are cool.
But I do.. but maybe not for the coolness of them but for the sentimental value they have with me.
They are part of me - who I am and what I stand for, in some way.

I think it's very interesting to look at people this way and see if they are aware of this.
Because I think I'm not the only one that uses branded material to state my identity, who I am.
I think we all do in one way.
Do you buy organic?
You prefer fair trade goods?
You buy Nike because of their link with the atheletes?

Now always, but most of the time there is reason behind our purchases.
Are we aware of them, that's my question.
Facebook definetly is a part of me and my way to communicate.

- with love -

obsessed much?

Somehow, these days, I'm constantly tired.
I started this semester so hard core, making sure I will not stay behind, misunderstand or fail my courses.
Now I can not even read one chapter :s

But besides these mild uncomforts I'm doing great.
School really is challenging me and my thoughts. I'm loving it :)

Why do people get obsessed with certain people/things?
I'm wondering as I seem to become easily obsessed with things I find interesting.
Then I just dont think of anything else, I share it with everyone and try to learn as much about it as possible.
What is it do be obsessed?

To preoccupy the mind of excessively.
v. intr.
To have the mind excessively preoccupied with a single emotion or topic
- from dictionary.com

How can you find the line between "normality" and "obsession"?
I dont think we will find that solution in a dictionary. But then again I dont think I know where to search.
Should you just feel it?
What if you dont?
What can happen if you overstep the line - even so far that the line becomes just a dot to you ( Joey Tribbiani - Friends )
I wonder.

Maybe obsession is normal in small doses - it keeps us interested in people/things and motivates us to learn more, be more.
But as long as you dont go too far from the mentioned "line".
I wonder.

I dont expect to come to a concrete answer - I will just stay a little obsessed with my things and hoping I can always keep the line in sight, stay interested and move on when the time is right ;)

- with love -

world of challenge leads to a better me

Three weeks already and my first two courses are about to end – with a big essay where I have to analyze business strategies and alignment of organizational identity within an organization of my own choosing.
What company should I choose?

It’s interesting to be reading about organizational culture and identity. I can relate many of the readings to my own experience, both inside an organization as well as just personal experience. Being new here in Copenhagen is bringing culture shocks and challenging my personal identity and what I stand for as an individual.

I feel challenged every day here.
The amount of reading materials is not something I’m used to, riding my bike in a different traffic ( and just trying to ride the bike after years of no practice hehe ), staying focused in classes, being analytical of the texts I’m reading, trying to get used to cook in the new kitchen, not understanding what people are saying and so many more.

But without challenge I wouldn’t want to strive to overcome them and become better, stronger, faster and able to speak Danish. Without constant challenge I would just be.
I don’t want to just be – I want to be great! I want to overcome these challenges and find the next ones as they will be harder, deeper, different.

I’m still trying to adjust to living in Denmark, learning what I can do after school, during weekends. Where I can sit down with a coffee or a beer, where I can meet friends, sit down and enjoy the weather.
I’m still learning. So far I think I’m doing good. But that doesn’t mean I could do better – I know I could!

-with love-

strengthen my faith to survive

It's already been 2 weeks since I moved from Iceland to Denmark, I'm getting settled in already, my room looks quite good and now it's just getting into the learning mood - reading all the time and have this analytical thinking.
it's just harder then I expected :)

As I sit a little longer at school looking at people that strike me as being so completely different from each other, with different backgrounds and different ways of thinking, I start to look at myself and ways that I am using my background and contributing with my different thinking - Am I doing that?

I sometimes doubt myself when I look at those people around me, I doubt my intellegence, I doubt my points in discussions and I doubt that I'm making a big fool of myself when I am trying to communicate.

“Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother.” – Kahlil Gibran

I think that the reason I'm feeling this little these days is that I'm not comfortable in the environment yet, I haven't build up my self esteem amongst my peers. But that's what they are - my peers. They are no better/worse then I am. Just different and I need to overcome the doubt that my difference will not be accepted/understood and just go with the flow.

I dont want to keep this longer as I need to continue studying.
I just wanted to get back to these thoughts that I'm having and what I feel is my way out of situations that I have gotten myself in, no matter if they are rightly there or not!

- with love and faith -

what have you got to say about your life?

Today is the last day of August and Septmber and the autumn is just behind the corner.
A lot of things have been going through my mind since I came to Copenhagen as this is a rush of experiences, feelings and learnings.

I'm currently sitting at my school, waiting for the first class of my Master program to start - Business Strategies - and I have a tingle in my stomach.
It's all about to begin.

I was watching a movie yesterday, Set it off with Jada Pinkett and my favorite actress Queen Latifah. I have seen this movie before, it's sad, it's heart breaking but still it has a good message in the end.
Short term solutions might seem the best way to go - but if you want to change, take a different course in life and get out of the hard life you are living, you have to plan forward. You have to realize how your short term plans and actions are contributing to where you see yourself in 5 years from now.

The girls in the movie didn't get that. Easy money and life was great. Until the Consequences caught up with them and they had to pay.

It was just interesting to see and hear how people in certain aspects believe that they do not deserve any better then what they have at the moment.
Is that correct? No!!
If so, then society ( in my opinion ) would never evolve as people were to afraid to learn, to adapt, to change.

Well, I just wanted to put this thought out there as I have to start learning and I had to release these thoughts :)
- with love -