This week I faced a challenge I had never come across before. It scared the hell out of me but in a good way because I know, facing this, was bringing a new learning to me.
I have always looked at challenges as a good thing for me to take on and I feel sorry for those who avoid them, try to skate through life on easy street and never develop into this amazing person they could be.
I dont want that to happen to me.
Taking on this challenge ment for me to rethink my ways of learning, enhance my focus, increase my will power.
It showed me that I need to step up my game.
It helped me see how I can do that.
And now, as hard as it may seem, I feel more ready to take on next semester with my learnings from this one.
I feel in balance.
How many people can say that?
The reason why I wanted to blog about this is to try to make people see that challenges are hard but they bring always something new, something needed to your life.
They are there for a reason. You have to understand that.
Do you want to be plain, always the same?
Or do you want to live up to the potential that was made for you?
I have made my decision... I sure hope you have too and it's the right one for you!
-with love-
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
2009 in a nutshell :)
It‘s been some time since I wrote here. I‘ve been busy, reflecting and organizing myself. But now it‘s time to share my year, a year full of memorable events. When I look back at the year I see happiness. Finally :)
January:
- My brother and his girlfriend had a baby son :) A beautiful precious entered my life and changed it in so many great ways.
- I went back to Paris with a little sadness as that place hadn‘t been the best for me work wise.
- I chaired a national conference in Denmark. It was a great experience, I met so many great people and gained friends for life :)
- Gunnfríður and Anna came to visit me at the conference site to meet me and tried to learn a little about AIESEC. That meant a great deal for me.
February:
- I finally found an interesting masters program to take. In Copenhagen Business School.
- Went to Icelandic ladies night in Paris. Met many interesting women and had good food and drink – all Icelandic of course ;)
- Went to All American Reject concert – AMAZING!!
- I took a TOEFL test and did really well. It was needed for my Masters application.
- I flew to Copenhagen and came as a surprise to Gorjans party. Had great time with friends and enjoyed walking around in Copenhagen.
March:
- Handed in my application for CBS.
- My little nephew got a name. Unfortunately I couldn’t be there as I was in Paris.
- Did a lot of sightseeing in Paris. It’s a great city to live in.
- Celebrated St.Patricks day with great bunch of people in Paris. Great fun and of course all in green!
- Chaired a national conference in Poland with around 150 people attending. It was challenging but a huge learning experience. And of course quite a bit of polish alcohol.
April:
- I resigned from my role as WENA ER coordinator and left few days later back to Iceland.
- Anna and Gunnfríður came to visit me during Easter in Paris. We went to museums ( Louvre etc. ), went up the Eiffel tower, saw an Andy Warhol exhibition, ate chicken in front of a church and so much more.
- Came home and hugged my family. :)
May:
- Partied with my cousin Ingunn. We had so much fun playing Guitar hero.
- Went to see Maria’s Bachelor project from Listaháskólinn – A lady bug doorbell :)
- Started SEA SWIMMING!
- Joined a great group of people who decided to fight the current situation in Iceland and arrange free summer course to help people start their own business. Such a great initiative and I was so proud to participate.
- Attended seminar about the financial crisis and its affect on Africa.
- Went to Selfoss to a Brass band concert. The band I played with for so many years celebrated it’s birthday.
- Chaired a Develop Leaders day for AIESEC in Iceland.
June:
- Went to Skagaströnd for the “fishermen Day”. Partied heavily with great friends.
- Finally got a paid summer job :) at a youth hostel.
- Waited and waited to hear from CBS.
- Met up with my friends from Sauðárkrókur. We went out for dinner. I ended up having a strange but a great night with Anna Sjöfn and her husband Maddi.
July:
- Got accepted into CBS for Masters in Strategy, Organization and leadership :)
- Went whale watching with Hugrún. We saw few whales and it was great fun but a little windy ;)
- Went sea angling ( fishing at sea ) with Hilmar and Haukur. I didn’t catch anything but Hilmar did and as he was with me it automatically became mine as well :)
- Became a big Sólstafir fan and went to their concert.
- Went to Bolungarvík for the first time in 6 YEARS! It was great to be back there to remind me why I love this place.
August:
- Preparation for Denmark started.
- Had a big birthday dinner with my dad for my family. Also to say goodbye.
- Celebrated my 26th birthday and invited friends over for cakes in a birthday/goodbye event.
- Flew with XX kg to Copenhagen the day before introduction week started. It was hard to walk up to 4th floor with all that luggage but I managed.
- Intro week started and I got to know my fellow students.
September:
- school officially started with heavy reading. It was hard getting back into learning mood.
- Went shopping in Ikea with Margrét who actually saved my life there. But at least I got a bed to sleep in, chair and table and place for my clothes :)
- Bought a bike. Important while living in Copenhagen.
- Anna came over and we had a great Thursday night partying with her cousin Atli, and then a lovely relaxed weekend of fun.
- Went to Sólstafir’s concert in Copenhagen. Loved it!
October:
- Me and Line had our house warming party. Finally.
- Went bowling with my class mates.
- Vera Sólveig came to visit. We went to a strange Indian place, Gorjans goodbye party and relaxed.
November:
- Went to visit my aunt and her husband. I stayed there for a weekend. It was really nice.
- Chaired a team building for the Danish MC. Somehow I can not get out of this organization ;)
- Attended a startup meeting with an American entrepreneur who shared his experience. Very interesting and gave me some ideas.
- Applied for a student job. Got into the phone interview.
- Went to a gospel choir practice. Just for fun :)
- Margrét Björg and Margrét came for a visit. Went for the first time to the Tivoli. Bought a year pass. ;)
December:
- Went to a Julefrokost with my class. So much fun, so much snaps and not a happy day after ;)
- Was invited for another interview with the job. Super happy with that.
- Went around the city due to the COP15 UN conference here.
- Met friends who came to Denmark for this conference. It’s so great to meet people, connect on more intimate levels and strengthen your friendship. Great.
- Partied with my study group.
- Went to Christiania.
- Flew home to celebrate Christmas and New Years with the people I love, my family.
In short, my year of 2009 was eventful. I don’t regret anything and I feel I have learned more about who I am and what I stand for. It has reconfirmed how much I love my family and how glad I am for the amazing friends I have.
I couldn’t ask for anything more.
With this great year in my experience box, I feel comfortable about taking on the next one. I hope it will be even better.
-with love-
January:
- My brother and his girlfriend had a baby son :) A beautiful precious entered my life and changed it in so many great ways.
- I went back to Paris with a little sadness as that place hadn‘t been the best for me work wise.
- I chaired a national conference in Denmark. It was a great experience, I met so many great people and gained friends for life :)
- Gunnfríður and Anna came to visit me at the conference site to meet me and tried to learn a little about AIESEC. That meant a great deal for me.
February:
- I finally found an interesting masters program to take. In Copenhagen Business School.
- Went to Icelandic ladies night in Paris. Met many interesting women and had good food and drink – all Icelandic of course ;)
- Went to All American Reject concert – AMAZING!!
- I took a TOEFL test and did really well. It was needed for my Masters application.
- I flew to Copenhagen and came as a surprise to Gorjans party. Had great time with friends and enjoyed walking around in Copenhagen.
March:
- Handed in my application for CBS.
- My little nephew got a name. Unfortunately I couldn’t be there as I was in Paris.
- Did a lot of sightseeing in Paris. It’s a great city to live in.
- Celebrated St.Patricks day with great bunch of people in Paris. Great fun and of course all in green!
- Chaired a national conference in Poland with around 150 people attending. It was challenging but a huge learning experience. And of course quite a bit of polish alcohol.
April:
- I resigned from my role as WENA ER coordinator and left few days later back to Iceland.
- Anna and Gunnfríður came to visit me during Easter in Paris. We went to museums ( Louvre etc. ), went up the Eiffel tower, saw an Andy Warhol exhibition, ate chicken in front of a church and so much more.
- Came home and hugged my family. :)
May:
- Partied with my cousin Ingunn. We had so much fun playing Guitar hero.
- Went to see Maria’s Bachelor project from Listaháskólinn – A lady bug doorbell :)
- Started SEA SWIMMING!
- Joined a great group of people who decided to fight the current situation in Iceland and arrange free summer course to help people start their own business. Such a great initiative and I was so proud to participate.
- Attended seminar about the financial crisis and its affect on Africa.
- Went to Selfoss to a Brass band concert. The band I played with for so many years celebrated it’s birthday.
- Chaired a Develop Leaders day for AIESEC in Iceland.
June:
- Went to Skagaströnd for the “fishermen Day”. Partied heavily with great friends.
- Finally got a paid summer job :) at a youth hostel.
- Waited and waited to hear from CBS.
- Met up with my friends from Sauðárkrókur. We went out for dinner. I ended up having a strange but a great night with Anna Sjöfn and her husband Maddi.
July:
- Got accepted into CBS for Masters in Strategy, Organization and leadership :)
- Went whale watching with Hugrún. We saw few whales and it was great fun but a little windy ;)
- Went sea angling ( fishing at sea ) with Hilmar and Haukur. I didn’t catch anything but Hilmar did and as he was with me it automatically became mine as well :)
- Became a big Sólstafir fan and went to their concert.
- Went to Bolungarvík for the first time in 6 YEARS! It was great to be back there to remind me why I love this place.
August:
- Preparation for Denmark started.
- Had a big birthday dinner with my dad for my family. Also to say goodbye.
- Celebrated my 26th birthday and invited friends over for cakes in a birthday/goodbye event.
- Flew with XX kg to Copenhagen the day before introduction week started. It was hard to walk up to 4th floor with all that luggage but I managed.
- Intro week started and I got to know my fellow students.
September:
- school officially started with heavy reading. It was hard getting back into learning mood.
- Went shopping in Ikea with Margrét who actually saved my life there. But at least I got a bed to sleep in, chair and table and place for my clothes :)
- Bought a bike. Important while living in Copenhagen.
- Anna came over and we had a great Thursday night partying with her cousin Atli, and then a lovely relaxed weekend of fun.
- Went to Sólstafir’s concert in Copenhagen. Loved it!
October:
- Me and Line had our house warming party. Finally.
- Went bowling with my class mates.
- Vera Sólveig came to visit. We went to a strange Indian place, Gorjans goodbye party and relaxed.
November:
- Went to visit my aunt and her husband. I stayed there for a weekend. It was really nice.
- Chaired a team building for the Danish MC. Somehow I can not get out of this organization ;)
- Attended a startup meeting with an American entrepreneur who shared his experience. Very interesting and gave me some ideas.
- Applied for a student job. Got into the phone interview.
- Went to a gospel choir practice. Just for fun :)
- Margrét Björg and Margrét came for a visit. Went for the first time to the Tivoli. Bought a year pass. ;)
December:
- Went to a Julefrokost with my class. So much fun, so much snaps and not a happy day after ;)
- Was invited for another interview with the job. Super happy with that.
- Went around the city due to the COP15 UN conference here.
- Met friends who came to Denmark for this conference. It’s so great to meet people, connect on more intimate levels and strengthen your friendship. Great.
- Partied with my study group.
- Went to Christiania.
- Flew home to celebrate Christmas and New Years with the people I love, my family.
In short, my year of 2009 was eventful. I don’t regret anything and I feel I have learned more about who I am and what I stand for. It has reconfirmed how much I love my family and how glad I am for the amazing friends I have.
I couldn’t ask for anything more.
With this great year in my experience box, I feel comfortable about taking on the next one. I hope it will be even better.
-with love-
Thursday, December 31, 2009
With questions I take on the new year!
It's the last day of this eventful year, 2010 is just around the corner and looking just as promising as this passing one has been.
It's interesting to look back and see the changes you have gone through, the challenges you have overcome, the people who empowered your life and the family who supported you.
I do feel blessed when I look back.
So many questions have come and gone through my head, questions that I have searched for answers and brought me closer to what I believe and what I stand for as a young Icelandic person.
Questions about love, lust, friends, family, education, motivation, obessesion, travels and so much more.
Some have been answered, Some still circle around my life waiting to be answered and some I dont think will ever get their answer.
These questions are my way to look forward, learn and expand my horizon.
I think each year needs to include some questions, something you search for, learn from and enjoy questioning.
Never take the status Quo.
Never accept things just because it has always been like that.
That I have learned.
It's hard, but the strong people who manage are those who leave something behind, those who live their lives proud, those who others hope they could be like. That is what I believe.
So when the new year comes along, I wish for continuous questions, hopes to learn more, enjoyment of experience and peace in being who you are.
I will continue looking for that.
Thanks for reading and happy new year
- with love -
It's interesting to look back and see the changes you have gone through, the challenges you have overcome, the people who empowered your life and the family who supported you.
I do feel blessed when I look back.
So many questions have come and gone through my head, questions that I have searched for answers and brought me closer to what I believe and what I stand for as a young Icelandic person.
Questions about love, lust, friends, family, education, motivation, obessesion, travels and so much more.
Some have been answered, Some still circle around my life waiting to be answered and some I dont think will ever get their answer.
These questions are my way to look forward, learn and expand my horizon.
I think each year needs to include some questions, something you search for, learn from and enjoy questioning.
Never take the status Quo.
Never accept things just because it has always been like that.
That I have learned.
It's hard, but the strong people who manage are those who leave something behind, those who live their lives proud, those who others hope they could be like. That is what I believe.
So when the new year comes along, I wish for continuous questions, hopes to learn more, enjoyment of experience and peace in being who you are.
I will continue looking for that.
Thanks for reading and happy new year
- with love -
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
still looking for creation
The holiday season is half way through, the new year is around the corner and life is sweet.
Time of family, love and fun is still around me and it makes me smile.
The thought of creation and expression is growing, hindering me in sleeping - the need is so strong. My mind can not stop wondering, thinking and analyzing the process, facts and tasks that needs to happen before.
I find it so interesting, I'm quite excited.
I look forward to the new year with all it's challenges, all it's opportunities and all it's learning that I intend to get.
2010 will be a challenging year.. I hope.. but one where I stand tall and take each challenge with a smile.
I have goals for 2010, I have ambitions and I look forward to organize myself, change myself and become even better.
2010 is my year, just as 2009 has been my year.. but just in even better way!
-with love-
Time of family, love and fun is still around me and it makes me smile.
The thought of creation and expression is growing, hindering me in sleeping - the need is so strong. My mind can not stop wondering, thinking and analyzing the process, facts and tasks that needs to happen before.
I find it so interesting, I'm quite excited.
I look forward to the new year with all it's challenges, all it's opportunities and all it's learning that I intend to get.
2010 will be a challenging year.. I hope.. but one where I stand tall and take each challenge with a smile.
I have goals for 2010, I have ambitions and I look forward to organize myself, change myself and become even better.
2010 is my year, just as 2009 has been my year.. but just in even better way!
-with love-
Sunday, December 27, 2009
In peace I find the will to create
Sitting in my parents living room with the TV on, the christmas lights brighly shining and window open, I feel great but a little restless. During this time where I eat, sleep, spend time with family I love the peacefulness but I also feel the need to create, to make something I can be proud of.
I want to write a book.
Writing a book is something I have always wanted to do. Specially when I was writing poems and I wanted to publish a book with my finest work.
Now I want to do more, something that people can learn from as I have learn from others.
I want to inspire, motivate and share.
This feeling is growing stronger and stronger.. Now it's disturbing my peace, leaving me with restlessness, a mind in overdrive wondering what to write about.. where is my passion.
I think this feeling is growing due to knowing my creativity needs improvement.. I need to work on my innovation, my thinking outside the box.
I think the book, the process of writing, will bring creativity to me.. help me with releasing my innovational and creative thinking.
I will continue thinking, looking at topics, finding where my passion lies. What could I write about?
How can I inspire?
will someone actually want to read what I have to say?
I also want to publish some of my finest poetry.. still collecting and wondering of the theme.. there has to be a theme right?
I love this restlessness because it challenges me..
It makes sure I dont just be, that I try to be even better then before.
I will continue to try.
Now I sit, enjoy the constant battle between the peace Christmas brings and the restless spirit the creativity awakens within me.
I love it.
And I do hope I continue following my feelings.
-with love-
I want to write a book.
Writing a book is something I have always wanted to do. Specially when I was writing poems and I wanted to publish a book with my finest work.
Now I want to do more, something that people can learn from as I have learn from others.
I want to inspire, motivate and share.
This feeling is growing stronger and stronger.. Now it's disturbing my peace, leaving me with restlessness, a mind in overdrive wondering what to write about.. where is my passion.
I think this feeling is growing due to knowing my creativity needs improvement.. I need to work on my innovation, my thinking outside the box.
I think the book, the process of writing, will bring creativity to me.. help me with releasing my innovational and creative thinking.
I will continue thinking, looking at topics, finding where my passion lies. What could I write about?
How can I inspire?
will someone actually want to read what I have to say?
I also want to publish some of my finest poetry.. still collecting and wondering of the theme.. there has to be a theme right?
I love this restlessness because it challenges me..
It makes sure I dont just be, that I try to be even better then before.
I will continue to try.
Now I sit, enjoy the constant battle between the peace Christmas brings and the restless spirit the creativity awakens within me.
I love it.
And I do hope I continue following my feelings.
-with love-
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Merry Christmas to y'all :)
It's night before Christmas eve and I'm home, in Iceland, with my family.
I've been home for few days and it feels amazing. Being with people you love and who love you.
Tomorrow comes Christmas, these special times I enjoy so much, peaceful and full of joy. People smile more but are stressed as well.
I dont feel stressed at all.
If something I feel too relaxed. Being home I have the mindset of enjoy, love and belonging.
As soon as I came home I felt the christmas spirit.
It's amazing.
Not that I didn't feel the Christmas in Copenhagen... it's just completely different when you come home, see the christmas lights and smile and hug my family.
Now Christmas can come.
I'm ready!
Christmas is one of my favorite time of the year.
I love spending time reading, eating, laughing, decorating, giving and receiving.
Seeing my family getting things they need, want and/or love.
There is something peaceful about this.
And I have been searching for peace, serenity and I feel it here.
I love it.
I wish I could hold on to it for longer.
I wish I could take it with me to Denmark.
I wish I could share it with everyone. allow them to feel what I feel during these times.
Christmas comes tomorrow, weather you like it or not.
I personally like it, I'm ready
So I wish you all merry Christmas and have the best holidays you can have with family and friends.
May the new year be the best so far.
I sincerely wish and hope this for you!
-with love-
I've been home for few days and it feels amazing. Being with people you love and who love you.
Tomorrow comes Christmas, these special times I enjoy so much, peaceful and full of joy. People smile more but are stressed as well.
I dont feel stressed at all.
If something I feel too relaxed. Being home I have the mindset of enjoy, love and belonging.
As soon as I came home I felt the christmas spirit.
It's amazing.
Not that I didn't feel the Christmas in Copenhagen... it's just completely different when you come home, see the christmas lights and smile and hug my family.
Now Christmas can come.
I'm ready!
Christmas is one of my favorite time of the year.
I love spending time reading, eating, laughing, decorating, giving and receiving.
Seeing my family getting things they need, want and/or love.
There is something peaceful about this.
And I have been searching for peace, serenity and I feel it here.
I love it.
I wish I could hold on to it for longer.
I wish I could take it with me to Denmark.
I wish I could share it with everyone. allow them to feel what I feel during these times.
Christmas comes tomorrow, weather you like it or not.
I personally like it, I'm ready
So I wish you all merry Christmas and have the best holidays you can have with family and friends.
May the new year be the best so far.
I sincerely wish and hope this for you!
-with love-
Monday, December 14, 2009
The need to express oneself leads to ....
I'm still searching for the peacefulness.. the power that comes when you are in total ease with who you are and what you dream of..
I'm searching in all the wrong places.
These words, Peace, tranquility, serenity, calm and hopes are something that I can not seem to get out of my thoughts since yesterday. They are affecting me in some way. But a good way.
I have this urge to express myself, but I need the right audience for what I want to say.
I know to whom my message is ment for, but I can not get the attention of the needed audiences. What to do then?
Still communicate?
pour my heart out?
make space for new thoughts?
What to do when I have a point but no one is near to hear it?
But then again I might challenge my questions and ask - do you want this group to hear what you have to say?
Are you sure peace and harmony will follow?
because that's the ultimiate need for my message. To create the environment of tranquility, of serenity. Where I can be left in peace with no worries or thoughts in mind.
Is that the ideal world I'm looking for?
my heart is pounding as this need to express, to say something, to be heard increases but my hope for someone to actually listen ( or the right audience will be found ) decreases.
My hopes are diminishing.
they are fading, now when I need them the most.
I still search for this ideal world, where peace is upon me.
Where these thoughts, this pain, this history is kept aside but not forgotten.
Where it lies in hibernation and leaves me with peaceful new experiences.
I'm searching.
In all the wrong places.
Direct me to the right place.
-with love-
I'm searching in all the wrong places.
These words, Peace, tranquility, serenity, calm and hopes are something that I can not seem to get out of my thoughts since yesterday. They are affecting me in some way. But a good way.
I have this urge to express myself, but I need the right audience for what I want to say.
I know to whom my message is ment for, but I can not get the attention of the needed audiences. What to do then?
Still communicate?
pour my heart out?
make space for new thoughts?
What to do when I have a point but no one is near to hear it?
But then again I might challenge my questions and ask - do you want this group to hear what you have to say?
Are you sure peace and harmony will follow?
because that's the ultimiate need for my message. To create the environment of tranquility, of serenity. Where I can be left in peace with no worries or thoughts in mind.
Is that the ideal world I'm looking for?
my heart is pounding as this need to express, to say something, to be heard increases but my hope for someone to actually listen ( or the right audience will be found ) decreases.
My hopes are diminishing.
they are fading, now when I need them the most.
I still search for this ideal world, where peace is upon me.
Where these thoughts, this pain, this history is kept aside but not forgotten.
Where it lies in hibernation and leaves me with peaceful new experiences.
I'm searching.
In all the wrong places.
Direct me to the right place.
-with love-
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