Is heaven something you make everyday?

Some days are better then others.
Usually, Wednesdays are my worst days of the week but today I have been in a good mood, working hard and super excited.
Tomorrow I'm leaving to Denmark, I will meet my friends again after more then 2 months. :)

Its so interesting, I'm sitting at the office and having random songs playing.
But as I start to write this post a song by Lenny Kravitz, Believe, starts playing.
And the lyrics is a appropriate - If you want it you got it. You have to believe, believe in your self.

That's something I'm learning more and more.
Having a smile, knowing how strong you are, believe in your power, your passion, your knowledge gets you far.
People respect those who respect themselves, those who believe in themselves, those who know what their worth.
I admire those people.
I am one of those people.

I'm leaving you now to prepare my journey to Denmark.
A journey full of exciting new adventures, old friends (old but great ) and learning to believe more in myself.
I wish you the same
- with love -

Free Hugs - Free smiles :)

it's strange, I have lived in Paris for just a month now and when I was coming home from my travels I felt I was coming "home". I am surprised how short time it took to look at Paris as my home. I think it's because I like it here and I want to make this my home.

My travels made me realize how much I love to be in different cities, meeting new people and being random in my actions ( random in a good way ).
I started my travels by going to Bratislava to meet Janie. She took the time to show me around and I enjoyed it so much. I liked Bratislava and it's surroundings. I learnt a lot about the history from this region and how things are different then you actually thought they had been.

After my stay in Bratislava I went to Piestany - a smaller town in Slovakia where EuroCo 2008 was held.
This town is very cute, at least the small part I saw of the city.
I walked around, eating Ice Cream and really loving my life.

After 6 days in that lovely little town I went back to Bratislava but my stay there would not be so long since I decided to take a bus to Budapest, Hungary.
I staied there for 1 day, doing sightseeing with people that I really dont know that much. But it was so much fun, and I feel like I'm stepping outside my comfort zone by interacting with people in higher level then just "hi how are you face".
Thanks Anula for hosting me in your lovely city :)

After Budapest my travels took my to Vienna, Austria.
That city impressed me so much. I had the best time there and I only staied there for 3 hours.
My and Vishal, MCP of AIESEC Belgium were there for short sight seeing and we found a group of people giving Free hugs to people walking by.
It was so interesting since I just saw a short movie at EuroCo about Free Hugs and how they can make people smile.
So me and Vishal got a free Hug and then we decided to participate as well, so we created our own "FREE HUGS" sign.
I have to admit that giving hugs to random strangers would not be something I had done few years back. But now, I feel I'm becoming a stronger individual that wants to spread smiles amongst the people around me.

So now I'm back in Paris, my home.
Thinking back at this travel, this experience with a smile.
And I'm so happy with my life, my friends and the people interacting with me on daily basis.
I'm so happy!´
-with love-

when you feel sad and blue

It's so sad when you feel like you are so small and that what you want/who you want is just not there for you to hold on to.
Its so sad to feel like you are just the "friend", just the one who stands in the corner, the one who knows everyone on superficial level but no one really tries to understand and appriciate.
It's so sad that people look at appearances, that people have steriotypes, that people have very strict messures of what beauty actually is.
It's so sad that when you want to fit in, people and circumstances wont let you.
It's so sad that in order to feel appriciated you can not expect more then being just this random person who is a platonic friend but everyone talks to but not really TALKS to.
It's so sad to know that this happen to different people every day, even when they should be in a group of people that they can trust, respect and value their thoughts.
Sometimes that's just on the surface, when you dig deeper you realize that these nice words, these nice moments weren't really real! you just asumed they were because you believe your actions towards them are real.
this is so sad to know.

ON the other hand...
it's so nice to know that there are people that appriciate what you do, what you have to add to the conversations and they listen with attention and really mean it.
It's nice to know that people you work with, people you have high expectations of really come through in the end.
It's nice to know that even though you feel bad because of things mentioned above, peope will make you smile.
Maybe it's not the people you wanted to make you smile. But those who do make you smile, make you forget that you feel sad, you really need to show them appriciation.
Otherwise you are the reason why they are sad as well.

Just some random thoughts coming to my mind in Slovakia.
my mind functions in various ways... this is just one of them.

wondering about life and love

It's strange how few small things can influence you and how you feel more then expected.

there is one aspect in my life that just seem to never want to work out. Maybe i'm not open enough for that to happen? Maybe I am scared of being hurt or being the one that hurt others?
So I question this thing - Love life - What the hell is that, and how should I make that work?

I know this is silly things to be thinking when I'm sitting in a 3 and a half star hotel in Slovakia with around 200 people from all Europe and Canada coming together to enhance their leadership skills and be prepared for their term ahead.
But still this comes to mind.

but my stay here in Slovakia has not been only about reflecting on this word.
It's also been about delivering on my promises, involving externals to AIESEC and showing them how benefitial it is to work with AIESECers.
I promised something.
Now it's up to me to walk the talk.
I look forward to it.
It's starting tonight. Tonight I feel like my work is about to take new turn, new twist to the better. More excitment, more challenging, more rewarding.
I'm seeing the first results of my work.
How cool is that?

So far I feel good. I feel ready.
- with Love -

It's the end of the month - Again :)

Today is the last day of September and I wonder where time goes?
It feels like only 2 weeks since I left Iceland, saying goodbye to my parents ( again - it doesn't get easier the often you do it ).

Tomorrow is the first day of October, month that somehow I feel like I have never liked so much, it's a rainy month, gray and lifeless - somehow.
I know it's not true but when I think about this month, these feelings come up.

Somehow I look at this October differently.
I see joy, I see colors ( still a little grayish but colors nevertheless) and I see people, friends and AIESECers.
This October I'm going to Slovakia for the first time - YEAH. I will be going to a conference, EuroCo and meeting coworkers, friends and the leaders on local levels in Europe.
But I will also meet a dear friend - Janie - again after a long time.
Thats special and I can not wait to meet her. :)

In October I'm also going to Denmark. The main reason is to meet my best friends there, go to concert and do some work as well.

In the end of October I'm going to a conference here in Paris on the topic of CSR, something that I'm very interested in.

So October is not looking so lifeless anymore. I'm actually happy to embrace this month with open arms and gladly take on the moments he has to offer ( he - the month ;) )

And to share with you this joy, I want to give you the link to the last pictures of my travels to Brazil.
Enjoy as much as I did :)
http://www.picturetrail.com/misswenaer-2

- with love -

quick update :P

Have put the first part of the Brazil pictures online.

Please find them here:
http://www.picturetrail.com/misswenaer-1

- with love -

Valuable experiences

Antoher week has started here in Paris. Another week ful of adventures and joy, hard work and challenges.

I'm experiences more, I'm enjoying being in Paris and I love to be a turist in a city I'm living in, to explore and embrace the culture, the arcitechture, the passion of the people.
since last week I tried to become "French".
I decided, since I'm only here for limited amount of time, lets make the most out of it.
So I had my hair cut, I bought new shoes and I'm feeling more me! Free and happy, smiling more and being happy.

The weekend was packed with agenda...
Friday evening the girls in the MC and I were planning to go to this goodbye party of some Intern here in Paris.
So we got all dressed up and left. Unfortunatly no one showed up so we started our own little party.
The music did not encourage my dancing mood so I left a little earlier then the girls.

Saturday was a good day, I read my book and then I decided to go to Versailles to see the Palace where history was made in France.
The Palace is HUGE, and so amazingly beautiful.
I saw rooms where Louis XIII and XIV lived, where Queens had their babies in public so people could be sure that the baby was truely royalty.
One thing that was also very interesting in the Palace was a sculpture show that artist called Jeff Kunzt was displaying in all the most important rooms.
They were creative but in complete abstract to the environment they were in.
It was cool to see that people are willing to live a humourus lives.

After the Palace sightseeing It was the plan to go to another Party. So we dressed up again and went out, this time to actually find the people.
It was very nice, met old friends and gained new friends.

Sunday was a peaceful day.
I woke up ( sore in the feet after walking so much ) and I slowly got into the action of the day.
Cleaned the kitchen and cleaned my place where I sleep was satisfing and needed.
Then I went to a place in Paris called Basilique du Sacré-Cœur, "Basilica of the Sacred Heart" where I sat down in the church stairs and read my book, listened to live music and enjoyed the great weather that Paris had that day.
I fell in love with this place, it's peaceful yet so crowed.
So I am very happy today, after experiencing things in Paris that I enjoyed so much.

- with love -