Life is full of questions - I dare to ask them and hope for answers.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

How old are you anyway?

This post was written last night!!

What is wrong with me?
I’m twenty five years old, I’m currently living in Paris and I travel all over Europe, I have great friends but still I prefer to stay at home, reading, watching DVD or sleep when I should be out there, partying and enjoying my youth.

Today is Friday, people all over are meeting, drinking, dancing and partying.
What do I do?
I stay at home and watch sex and the city.
Dont get me wrong – I’m learning a lot from those TV shows, something that I think was about time for me to learn. ;)
But I can not stop thinking about why I prefer to take it easy then go out and go crazy.

Tomorrow will be Saturday ( duh ) and I have promised myself and JuanCa that we will go out. We can not stay inside for the whole weekend, no matter how nice it is to sit with your cover and watch great TV shows and now have to really put yourself out there, meeting new people and having some real fun.

As I sit and write this, I want to go out.. I just dont have the energy to stand up, get dresses ( yes I’m in my pajamas ) and find a cool place to hang out. Maybe because I dont know this place, dont know the people and it would take more efford from my side then usually back home in Iceland. Same with Paris, I dont know the places, I do know the people though.
The thing is, with right people and the right atmosphere set early I’m all up for having fun, going out, meeting new people and all that s**t.
But when I have already gotten home, into my pajamas there is not much that can attract me out of them to my party clothes and get me to wear my shoes and walk out the door.
Why?

Well, I will have to see if I honor the promise I made to myself tonight.
I will of course do my best,
But I know myself, I know how much I love to relax and unwind, watching a great DVD and then go to sleep.
Am I getting older then I actually am? Am I an old soul that just doesn’t have the energy to do young stuff anymore?
We’ll see tomorrow :p

- with love and affection -

Thursday, November 27, 2008

life and randomness

I'm sitting at the the AIESEC Office for Central and Eastern Europe and my mind is going everywhere it shouldn't be :)
Meaning, not in the mood to work.

I have been in Budapest for week now, I like it here and me and JuanCa are having fun ( at least I am ;) )
This time in Budapest has really been taking me out of my comfort zone in more than one way..
But I like it. I like to be challenged, being forced to face fears and being uncomfortable and not take things to seriously.

I have been watching "sex and the city" in Budapest and I have to admit I sometimes admire those women - they're so not afraid, they are daring and sexy but still vulnerable and sensitive.
Why can I not be like this?
Why can I not just take a chance and hope for the best - if not then HEY at least I tried..
Not only with men, but just in every aspect of my life!

But one step at a time right?
I'm still working on the "No excuses" one..
and it's going quite well... :) at least I'm smiling and enjoying my work.

I will be in Budapest for the weekend.. partying like Crazy in the second Porn capital in the world ( what ever that means ) and then be heading to Prague next monday.!!
Life's good.
- with love -

Monday, November 24, 2008

My loved ones.. my family :)

When I have hard times, tough times and disappointing times I always look to my family for support and happiness.
These passed few weeks I have come to understand how big value my family is in my life.. I always knew they were important to me.. but now I see, Family is one of my core values.

I dont think I would have been such a strong individual without a strong family. :)
Thanks for everything..





This week has been all about getting my motivation back, getting great news and feeling ready to start smiling again.
Budapest is surely a city I enjoy visiting.
It's one of the most Beautiful cities I have been to.

I went to Careers in Europe ( www.careersineurope.com )
and it really made me enjoy my role, my responsibility and I enjoyed getting to communicate AIESEC to companies that showed interest and passion.
I have been smiling for a 4 days now.. It feels so good :)

I keep thinking about what I wrote last week - I will not give any excuses.. No more.
If I dont get answers, I will go on anyway.
If people dissagree, I take their feedback and go on anyway.
If I get no results, I check why, smile and go on anyway.
I will not give excuses :)




- with love -

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

one more travel - start of something more?

Yesterday I was down..
But honestly.. these past days/weeks I have been down. I dont want to go to work, I dont feel like I'm getting anything out of this work. Like I used to.
Talking to Gunga, she mentioned that when I was selected.. I was so excited, so happy and so much looking forward to this great experience...
Well, it has been very different and not as great as I expected..
But life goes on right?

Yesterday I decided not to make excuses.. so today I started trying to enjoy the work.
So far, it's only up to 40% enjoyment. I would say..

But why did I wanted to share with you today?
Just the fact that I want to make this year a great year, at least with the people I'm working with.. I want to have great friends from this year.

Tomorrow I'm going to Budapest, for a Career in Europe Event.. Super excited.
I want to make this a start of more motivated time in my term.. Make sure I come back to Paris with a smile. :)

- Just a disclamer.. I love Paris and the people here.
I'm not demotivated around them :)

So I'm off.. another travel, another country and hopefully another great experience.

- with love -

Monday, November 17, 2008

Unhappy and wanting some more....

listen to music as reading the post!!








These days, I dont feel inspired..
Not to write my blog, not to do my work, not to go out and see paris - I feel like I have seen almost everything there is ( in a turist kind a must see )

Last weekend I went to Evry, a subburb of Paris for an AIESEC conference.
It was such a great time for me.
Reconnecting with new members who just joined AIESEC, they are getting the spirit and giving it back to me.
It made me realize that I'm not enjoying my time as much as I should be on Regional level. My passion is for "on the ground" work.. where actions actually happen. ;)

It's not that I dont like my role.. I just dont LOVE it.
Mainly because of how unclear things have been, it's demotivating and I dont like it.
I knew that when I took on this role of WENA ER coordinator, things were not so clear, I would work alone a lot and be part of a virtual team.
But never in a long time would I have taken this role - or any role - knowing that I might not know where to stay in 14 days time, not getting any answers for my questions, having money problems and no answers ( that's not only due to the Role ).

But I'm finished complaining..
I'm not going to give more excuses.. people have managed to live one year in a role they dont really enjoy - I just have to deliver on my measurables, make some money for the Region and then look at the next steps.
I am looking forward to that.

Tomorrow will be a new day with new thoughts, new opportunties to make things happen.
And I will keep on thinking on my deliverables
and my next steps.
I look forward to a Christmas holiday :)
- with love -

Saturday, November 15, 2008

more pictures

Pictures give me pleasure.. I love taking them, I love looking at them and remembering good times, great times, good friends and great friends.

I also love to share with others what I have done, where I have been and how great my life is.

I finished uploading the october pictures for my family and friends..
you can find them here:
http://www.picturetrail.com/misswenaer-4

Enjoy as much as I do :)

Friday, November 14, 2008

my adventures in pictures

Today I started to upload pictures from my October adventures.

you can find the first part here:
http://www.picturetrail.com/misswenaer-3

More to come, hopefully today :)

Friday, November 7, 2008

Proud of my friends!!

these passed days good news have been on my way.

- I'm staying in Paris until December but then I fly off to Iceland again :)
- I'm going to Budapest for Careers in Europe fair with JuanCa, see here
- I'm going to Prague for the CEE External Relations Summit with JuanCa ( man he's going to be tired of me ;)
- One of my dearest friends got accepted for NYU with a scholarship. I'm so proud of you Ali :)

I know that I'm living a great life but the best thing is my friends and my family.
So When good things are happening to them, I feel so good.

I do not want to write to much here.. I'm not feeling inspired.
So many things to do, conference starts tomorrow, people at the office...
And I'm writing my blog ;)
I sure got my priority straigth!

- with Love -