I'm sitting in my living room and listening to tranquil moments by the sea. It's not because I'm all stressed out, not because I feel the need to relax but because I'm leading a reflection session for outgoing AIESECers tomorrow.
I want it to be a peaceful experience and in order to give that to them I feel I should be at peace as well.
I've been feeling a little restless.. not able to stay focused on the things at hand and keep dreaming and thinking of other projects I much rather would like to be working at than those I ought to be focusing on.
I'm trying to organize my days.
I'm trying to stay true to the path I see success on.
I'm trying to stay happy.
but distractions are many and unfortunately I fall easily.
falling is so easy, it's the "rising up again" part and look away from temptations that is so challenging for me.
And the worst thing is, I keep falling for the same distractions over and over again, even though I know better.
I swear, I know better but I can not stay strong.
I so want to stay strong.
Each fall opens something hurting inside and I want to leave that behind.
I want to forget.
close my eyes and not beleive I still feel something.
I want to be able to look away when tempted.
So far I'm still weak.
But I want to be strong!
- with love -
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i admire your hope in the last two paragraphs. I dont know why i read your blog, i just cliked to see the next blog and your blog appeared. The thing is that im feeling just like you felt right now, well not exactly but i think i will feel like you in about...i dont know, im just scared i guess. The thing is that i will love to invite you to my blog but i dont know if you can read spanish. Maybe i will making some changes about it. God Bless ;)
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