one more travel - start of something more?

Yesterday I was down..
But honestly.. these past days/weeks I have been down. I dont want to go to work, I dont feel like I'm getting anything out of this work. Like I used to.
Talking to Gunga, she mentioned that when I was selected.. I was so excited, so happy and so much looking forward to this great experience...
Well, it has been very different and not as great as I expected..
But life goes on right?

Yesterday I decided not to make excuses.. so today I started trying to enjoy the work.
So far, it's only up to 40% enjoyment. I would say..

But why did I wanted to share with you today?
Just the fact that I want to make this year a great year, at least with the people I'm working with.. I want to have great friends from this year.

Tomorrow I'm going to Budapest, for a Career in Europe Event.. Super excited.
I want to make this a start of more motivated time in my term.. Make sure I come back to Paris with a smile. :)

- Just a disclamer.. I love Paris and the people here.
I'm not demotivated around them :)

So I'm off.. another travel, another country and hopefully another great experience.

- with love -

Unhappy and wanting some more....

listen to music as reading the post!!








These days, I dont feel inspired..
Not to write my blog, not to do my work, not to go out and see paris - I feel like I have seen almost everything there is ( in a turist kind a must see )

Last weekend I went to Evry, a subburb of Paris for an AIESEC conference.
It was such a great time for me.
Reconnecting with new members who just joined AIESEC, they are getting the spirit and giving it back to me.
It made me realize that I'm not enjoying my time as much as I should be on Regional level. My passion is for "on the ground" work.. where actions actually happen. ;)

It's not that I dont like my role.. I just dont LOVE it.
Mainly because of how unclear things have been, it's demotivating and I dont like it.
I knew that when I took on this role of WENA ER coordinator, things were not so clear, I would work alone a lot and be part of a virtual team.
But never in a long time would I have taken this role - or any role - knowing that I might not know where to stay in 14 days time, not getting any answers for my questions, having money problems and no answers ( that's not only due to the Role ).

But I'm finished complaining..
I'm not going to give more excuses.. people have managed to live one year in a role they dont really enjoy - I just have to deliver on my measurables, make some money for the Region and then look at the next steps.
I am looking forward to that.

Tomorrow will be a new day with new thoughts, new opportunties to make things happen.
And I will keep on thinking on my deliverables
and my next steps.
I look forward to a Christmas holiday :)
- with love -

more pictures

Pictures give me pleasure.. I love taking them, I love looking at them and remembering good times, great times, good friends and great friends.

I also love to share with others what I have done, where I have been and how great my life is.

I finished uploading the october pictures for my family and friends..
you can find them here:
http://www.picturetrail.com/misswenaer-4

Enjoy as much as I do :)

my adventures in pictures

Today I started to upload pictures from my October adventures.

you can find the first part here:
http://www.picturetrail.com/misswenaer-3

More to come, hopefully today :)

Proud of my friends!!

these passed days good news have been on my way.

- I'm staying in Paris until December but then I fly off to Iceland again :)
- I'm going to Budapest for Careers in Europe fair with JuanCa, see here
- I'm going to Prague for the CEE External Relations Summit with JuanCa ( man he's going to be tired of me ;)
- One of my dearest friends got accepted for NYU with a scholarship. I'm so proud of you Ali :)

I know that I'm living a great life but the best thing is my friends and my family.
So When good things are happening to them, I feel so good.

I do not want to write to much here.. I'm not feeling inspired.
So many things to do, conference starts tomorrow, people at the office...
And I'm writing my blog ;)
I sure got my priority straigth!

- with Love -

when the heavens are crying

The other day I had a dream about my grandfather, but he passed away last July.
He looked so happy with constant smile on his face, enjoying his time with the family ( in the dream ) and I remember how peaceful I felt when I woke up.

Today is the day when you honor the people that have passed away, those people that ment the world to you and you cherish every moment you had with when they were alive.

I knew about this day but I didn't connect it with my dreams of my grandfather.
Now I see that this was my way to connect, to honor, to remember.
Share my dream with him, laugh together, smile together and share random jokes like old times.

When I was told about this day, honor those who have passed away, I didn't really understand why.
But as the day comes closer and I reconnect with my grandfather, I understand completely. I understand that it's about honoring the life of that person, honoring their impact they had on you and to strengthen your ties with that person.
This day makes so much sense to me now.

I know my grandfather is happy with how strong I am, the life I'm living and the way I treat and respect people around me.
But I also know that he's happy knowing that I remember, honor and respect him.

When I was walking to the office today it rained heavily and a sentance came to my mind in Icelandic... Himnarnir Gráta ( the heavens are weaping ) and the reason again is the concept of today.
We feel sad when people leave us, that we will not have more time, moments, jokes and laughter with that individual.
It's not the fact that it's raining that I connect with the concept.. but it's the feeling I get when it's stopped raining. That feeling is of new beginning.. fresh breath and green grass..
That is what I connect with today.
Knowing that life is not forever.. make every moment a fresh breath of air in your life so that you enjoy your path you're taking.



I'm smiling as I write this.. knowing that this post is a little chaotic, little unclear and little strange.
But it makes complete sense to me.
- with love -

New day and new discoveries

Like I said in my previous blog, some lyrics just hit home, depends on how you are feeling and what you are going through at each time.
Yesterday, the beatles song - Let it be - made me realize few things about me and my behaviour.
But yesterday i also heard a song that I haven't heard for a long time, and it's completely in my head.
And yet again, the lyrics are something that make me stop and think.



"A broken heart cant be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
so come on, baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too

Build up your confidence
so you can be on top for once

Why be alone when we can be together baby?
You can make my life worth while
I can make you start to smile"

I extremely like this song, its cool, it's hip and those lines that I have written up here.. I really connect with them in one way or another.

My day today was good.
Came to the office and drowned myself in work. Then I planned my social calander for the week.
It looks good!
Lets hope I'll enjoy the last days in Paris :)

-with love-