who are you and what do you want?

Despite the absence of writing my mind has been generating a lot of interesting thoughts. I just havent had the motivation to write them down or share with people. When life gets hard, it is like I close off. I need to bounce back.
And motivation is coming back, with support from loved ones. Life is becoming slowly more optimistic and good things are happening again. After a LONG summer full of challenges where I couldnt see the way out of.
I have said so many times "life is what you make of it" and of course it is true. But the thing is, you are not alone in this life (thankfully). You have to interact with other people on your quest to get the best life possible. And sometimes its the other people who stand in your way, who are the challenge in your life. and it is not so easy to work around other people.
Slowly the situation involving the "troublemakers" changes, sometimes to the better, sometimes to the worse. thankfully in my case it changed to the better. I of course did what I could do to solve the situation, but the other party has actions as well. And sometimes those actions lead you in even more challenges that you were in before.

Life is not so simple as you can do whatever you want and get whatever you want because there is always the interaction to the other person involved. of course, if you dont do what you have to to reach your dreams you will not become any closer to it. However, it would be naive to think that it comes without any obstacles or interactions with others. And maybe the other party wants what you want and will not allow you to get it. Maybe they screw you over, obstruct you in your quest by their actions (sometimes unintentionally). But you always have to account for interactions of others and how you want to counteract.

This is what I have been dealing with this summer. People unintentionally screwing me over, which leaves me in a mess. But I still decided to counteract with open minded, good communication and optimism, (dont get me wrong. I made sure I knew my rights and got what they owed me, just by being diplomatic). But despite that I want to work things out and do what I can to do so, the other party's action (or lack of) will affect the outcome of my work.

So my final point is this.. do what you have to do..but be aware that we are not alone in this. There are other people in the process you have to work with or communicate with that might disturb your work. So always have all details in place, keep facts clear, and think of all outcomes possible. By doing so, you will not be so surprised by the results and more able to counteract in the best way possible for you to reach what you want to reach.
human encounters are inevitable. We just have to be able to build the relationship in the way it is not a hinder to success but a support to it. You have to know how you are dealing with (as much as you can know someone) and by doing so you are more able to estimate reactions and build the right counter strategy if needed.

So let us not be surprised by people who might want our success but let us be prepared and overcome their selfishness and still reach our goals and dreams!

p.s not everyone is out to hurt us.. we have to find those who are friendly and build strong relationships with these people because we might need their support in dealing with those who do hurt us.

-with love-

month of experience hopefully leads to a month of dreams!

The end of another month is here, strange feelings are attatched as phases come to an end and new begin, each with their own issues and troubles as well as joy and smiles. 

This last month has flown by so fast.

Most likely because Ive been keeping myself busy.

I try to stay active, try to learn new things, try to meet new people who might help me on my way and I might be able to learn from as well.

This past month has been full of professional experiences, personal experiences, love experiences and more.

Its taken me highest of high emotionally, down to the lowest of low where I become scared and vulnerable.

But all in all, this past month has been amazing.

I reconfirmed my passion and I am sure that I am heading the right way. Just getting there is taking longer time and has more barriers than I had expected.
But my approach to this is that ”good things do not come easy”.
It is just, when you know what you want to do when you grow up, but face troubles in getting there, it discourages you. It demotivates you. It allows doubt to enter your thoughts.

”I mean, if it is what I am supposed to be doing with my life, would it be so hard to reach it?”

YES!

So I´ll not keep this longer, but leave you with the thought that if it hard to reach your dreams, it is mostly because they are worth the work.

BUT, in some cases the dream is not supposed to be reached. It is not logical, not realistic to reach it, your work is not bringing you closer. Then it is important to re-evaluate the dream and either find a new one or a new way to reach it.

Knowing what you want to do with your life is the biggest part in the process. We now just have to figure out how to reach it, how to overcome the barriers and to realize if it is not meant to be, find a new dream.
It is not so easy, but easier than chasing something that will never happen.
at least you go through moment of pain when dropping the dream and finding another, but your chase will show some efford.

So at the moment, the barriers to my dreams are not too high, I still see ways to overcome them. But if, and I hope it doesnt come to this, but if I realize that I might not reach what I want that way.. I know I have to re-evaluate my dream, and figure out a new way to reach where I want to be. Or even.. figuring out something else I could do when I grow up.

So I wish you all a great new month, full of adventures and dreams. And I wish you success in reaching the place you want to be at in your life.

-with love-

I take the responsibility for my own life!

I guess life is only as good as you allow it to be.. or what?
Last post I mentioned the Law of attraction and how positive (or negative) thoughts call on good (or bad) events in your life.

So now.. loads of good things have come my way. But in this, like in everything in life, there is a balance between "good and evil". One cannot be without the other.
So Bad news have also arrived.
But I have tried my best to figure out how to solve the problem and still be able to look at life with a smile on my face.
Because I realize that I cannot ask for only good things (well I can but I have to realize that good things come in different "levels" of good) and that things will come my way I do not have any control over, might not be happy with or might mess up my life.
But it is my job, as an individual, as a person in my society, to work through my issues and not blame the "world".

Being a part of society is important to me.. and it should be important to everyone.
But I don't feel like everyone understands how amazing it can be.
My thoughts are, I am no one if I´m not belonging to something, someone, somewhere.
And it is this "something, somewhere" that gives me motivation to work on my issues, to smile to the world and contribute.

I havent given this a lot of thought,
Just wanted to mention this... that it is our role to be a part of our society, to work through our issues to be able to participate and give back and receive what others are giving.
Share our good thoughts, good events, and have support from your network, your society, your people in times of need.

This is just what I believe, like everything else here..this is what floats around in my head!
I hope someone is thinking the same..
if yes, please share.
If no, then please share why! :)

-with love-

How to work the law of attraction?

Life is interesting.
One day you might be having a rough day, nothing goes your way and you are demotivated. And the next day, things are so much better, you're seeing results, you are positive and passion comes up again.

Law of attraction becomes important to focus on when the streak of good events is taking place in life. Good energy, good thoughts on your behalf bring more good events and good thoughts. That cycle of positive is what life is all about. Negatives are bound to happen in between.. but we cannot allow it to take over our thoughts.

This is what I'm trying to work on.
I know its hard, I experience it every day.
But I wanna enjoy life when things are working out, like it is now in my life.
So by reflecting a little on my thoughts, my attitude, my experience in the week that has passed, I am loving life. I want to make it continue so I'm thinking how can I make sure that actually happens.
Dont get me wrong. Not so pleasant things took place in the week but the positive out weights the negative. and that is what I want to continue focusing on.
But how to do so?

That is what I'm still working on.
I'm still reflecting on my experiences, my thoughts and what I might have done to change the course of my life to the better.
I look at the people around me, how I approach them, how I work with them, how I respect and treat them.
I look at my attitude towards obligatory things in my life, how I partake in them and how I make sure I'm learning something from everything I'm doing,

I'm loving life at the moment.
And I want it to stay.
I want to send out positive energy to receive more positive energy.
And I'm working on it.

-with love-

The road to relationship - is a journey worth taking

It is interesting, this process of relationship. I've mentioned it few times how hard it is to follow the "rules" of dating, and how frustrated I am that people think we have to play games to get what we want. It just makes a hard process even harder. Finding the one you like/love is no easy task. So having all the barriers and rules, just frightens people of I can imagine.. people just give up on the search, for people who may already be within their sight and just let be, give up, quit. Because that is so much easier than having to go through this winding road.

So the "road" to relationship is hard. That I knew already, both from others as well as my own experience. but I always try to take out the games, the "rules" in order to make it a bit more easier. I wish everyone would think along the same lines as I do.. but that will never happen, another wishful thinking on my behalf. But how can I make sure that I dont fall into playing the games others are playing? How can I not become a "victim" of the relationship game?

I believe, in my case, it is by being extremely outspoken about my intentions, what I want to get out of the particular relationship and being honest. I know, its not as easy as it sounds. far from it.
I know this is what I strive for.. but being honest, being open about your feelings, to a person you like - or even love - can be so frigging scary.
I start to think, what if they dont agree?
What if they dont want the same thing?
What if they think I'm naive for acting this way?
What if, what if?
These what if's are valid.. but the thing is.. if the person you are in a relationship respects you.. s/he will respect that you speak your mind, that you are honest to yourself. even if you might not really play the game they are playing you... I believe respect will be there. And also, if you cannot trust that person to overcome the "rules of the game" and be honest and listen to your concerns, then by all means, get out of that relationship!! That is my opinion.

Everyone plays games... I even play games. I try to choose my "settings of the game, the situation", carefully. try to make sure my game does not rule the way I build relationship with people.
Because those games, I find can break down a relationship just as fast as it can build one!! And that I dont want..if I'm anyway interested in building a relationship with someone. then I want it to be built on a solid ground.. with respect.

Just another thought I needed to get out there.. because all my questions just circle in my head and are one step closer to have answers when I "speak" them out loud here.

-with love-

You are my special someone - let me be yours!

It is amazing how good people can make you feel and how special they can make you believe you are.

Everyone of us has the need to be cared for, need to feel loved, need to feel comfortable in our own skins, need to have smiles and intimite kisses once and a while.
Finding the people who make this happen for you is a blessing.
Do not take it for granted you will meet one easily.

Being a shy person, not so comfortable about myself in one way but super secure about my abilities in other areas, is a challenge.
Being totally comfortable with someone, allowing my guard to fall back a little, laughing, smiling, feeling ok by crying in front of that someone, is a rare feeling for me.
So when I've found it, I'll try my hardest to fight for it.
because that is what it takes.... fight!
Show appreciation, show that person the same respect, same love, same vulnerability to allow them to cry or laugh,
that is what makes life worth living, it makes the hard times worth it.
Because you have someone to share them with, someone who makes you feel better about you and your situations.

Who doesnt want that?
but do we all recognize it and fight for it when we have it?
I doubt it.
And that is what I fear, not fighting hard enough, not fighting fair enough and showing how much this person means to me!

By writing this, I wish you all to be open to this person. this one who makes you smile and be secure about who you are, no matter how you look like.
I wish you all to hold on to this person, because they dont come often..
I wish you to fight for them. Because if you dont, they'll leave.
Just as much as you need to feel the love, feel the security, feel the passion.. that person has the same needs as well.
Do them right just as they are doing you right.

That is my wish, for the coming days, months and even years..

-with love-

Music makes the world go round - and all my feelings as well !!

Few times here I've written about the power of lyrics and music, how certain songs and their words can heal/refocus your thoughts, your feelings and your heart.
I have my own personal healing song, a song I listen to when I know I need to move on.. when I know I cannot stay in the mindset I'm in at that time.
And it works ALL THE TIME.
maybe that is because I know it is my healing song and when I listen to it in that purpose it just works.

but its not that often that the singer impacts me more than the lyrics.
However, I just had that experience tonight.
I was listening to a song I dont know sung by a person I have only heard few times sing and I could feel my happiness and love just flowing. It made me think about people I care about, it made me think of not being angry when there is no need - and the funny thing is that I dont know if the lyrics of the song were in any alignment with this or not.. I just heard this guy's voice and I got blown away.

I just wanted to share this with anyone who is reading.
Be open for empowerment, for inspiration, for guidance
Because it can come in any form, at any time when you least expect it.
And when it does come and you notice that it impacts you - listen to those feelings, listen to your motivations, listen to what this is telling you.. and follow it.

I know that I feel even happier now than I was before this song... my anger melted away and I'm so happy for that, because it was useless anger - but I couldnt see it until now - when certain emotions were woken in me.
And I appreciate it.
I hope you do too!!

-with love-