standing in the kitchen, just finished the lasagne and it's now in the oven.
There is one thing that is circling around my head. Actually that's a lie. There are so many things going on in this little head of mine. I just can not stop it.
What I mean is that there is a thing that has been more active today then regularly.
Why do I bother having a blog?
I have been reading friends blogs these past days and they are so good pens. They always choose a topic that is showing inside into the topic, sharing knowledge and just being plain inspirational.
I love that about them.
Mine is not that type of blog. and I started to think why not? Why did I choose to make mine so personal, where I share my thoughts more then knowledge?
I think I have knowledge to share.
When I think of it, my reasons are most likely these:
- I have so many questions of my own, things I need to understand and I want to contemplate about. issues others can share with me and I want to offer this opportunity to do so.
I feel this blog is not my platform to inform but more as a platform to grow.
I enjoy sharing my thoughts even though I dont get any feedback on them.
Putting things into words, makes me smarter, more knowledgeable and potentially more able to inform later on in life.
It's just not that time for me yet.
It will be :)
- with love -
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Why not be yourself?
I just finished a little questionaire for a job I'm applying for and it made me think a little.
this is the second time in few months where I have gotten positive answers based on my experience, what I have done and what I have to offer.
It feels amazing.
what came to my mind is how often we feel small, little and not worthy of good things.
I have felt the same and that's why it's so important that when you finally get a confirmation that what you are doing is great, is impressive to others and you have something to give, that we embrace it. We dont just disgard it but smile and say THANK YOU! YES I AM!
But its harder then just saying it. It takes mindset changes that can happen with one step at a time.
It was just something that hit me this evening. Something that I keep forgetting as I sink back to ordinary and plain where self-believe and confidence is not cool. Not looked good upon.
Why I dont understand.. how great would it be if you can embrace your greatness without feeling selfish, cocky or stupid?
Well, I'm sure gonna keep on trying to embrace my awesomeness and support others in embracing theirs.
- with love -
this is the second time in few months where I have gotten positive answers based on my experience, what I have done and what I have to offer.
It feels amazing.
what came to my mind is how often we feel small, little and not worthy of good things.
I have felt the same and that's why it's so important that when you finally get a confirmation that what you are doing is great, is impressive to others and you have something to give, that we embrace it. We dont just disgard it but smile and say THANK YOU! YES I AM!
But its harder then just saying it. It takes mindset changes that can happen with one step at a time.
It was just something that hit me this evening. Something that I keep forgetting as I sink back to ordinary and plain where self-believe and confidence is not cool. Not looked good upon.
Why I dont understand.. how great would it be if you can embrace your greatness without feeling selfish, cocky or stupid?
Well, I'm sure gonna keep on trying to embrace my awesomeness and support others in embracing theirs.
- with love -
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I am winter - fading away
This week, after going through some personal stuff, I feel I'm finally getting on the right role.
I'm starting to be organized again, I'm listening to music, I'm talking to friends and I think I'm smiling more.
It was about time I just say.
But I also think the weather here in Denmark is affecting my feelings. It's all so gray and dull and it keeps on snowing like I dont know what.
For me, this should be the time when the country starts to brighten up a little, green leaves around and people biking more.
but that's not happening as the winter holds on with every breath that it has to stay. And so far it's been stronger then the spring.
I personally hope, Mr. Winter starts to loose the power, starts to let go and accept the fact that spring has to come with it's birdsinging, green color and smiling people.
I can not wait.
But I personally, think I'm behaving like winter.
I'm holding on to something, some image of perfection, and I do not accept that it's time to let it go. Spring has to come with new images, with new connections for me and I need to embrace it.
I think that my power is starting to fade though as I start to feel this fact, that this image is not perfect. That the perfect image is out there somewhere.
I just need to let go, search and keep my arms open for it.
So I'm being winter at this moment,
trying to keep alive something that is destined to fade away.
so as winter slips away, I hope my image slips away with it.
-with love-
I'm starting to be organized again, I'm listening to music, I'm talking to friends and I think I'm smiling more.
It was about time I just say.
But I also think the weather here in Denmark is affecting my feelings. It's all so gray and dull and it keeps on snowing like I dont know what.
For me, this should be the time when the country starts to brighten up a little, green leaves around and people biking more.
but that's not happening as the winter holds on with every breath that it has to stay. And so far it's been stronger then the spring.
I personally hope, Mr. Winter starts to loose the power, starts to let go and accept the fact that spring has to come with it's birdsinging, green color and smiling people.
I can not wait.
But I personally, think I'm behaving like winter.
I'm holding on to something, some image of perfection, and I do not accept that it's time to let it go. Spring has to come with new images, with new connections for me and I need to embrace it.
I think that my power is starting to fade though as I start to feel this fact, that this image is not perfect. That the perfect image is out there somewhere.
I just need to let go, search and keep my arms open for it.
So I'm being winter at this moment,
trying to keep alive something that is destined to fade away.
so as winter slips away, I hope my image slips away with it.
-with love-
Saturday, February 13, 2010
be or not to be - my valentine!
I'm currently sitting at my friends place and spending some time with my computer.
Tomorrow is Valentines day, a day I do not celebrate and think is such a fake holiday. But of course it affects me as my society has adopted this day, make it relevant and supports people to believe it's the only day to show and express love.
How sad is that?
Or at least I believe so..
One year ago I was in Paris and I wrote a little text about this holiday as well then.
What I was writing then was that for me this day is not only about Love as in romantic love. It's about love between the people you cheerish, the ones you want to have a strong relationship with and those that you want to show you love.
But in order for this to happen you can not use only one day - you have to be concistant in showing your love, being in love and make sure your love doesnt dissapear. One day is not solving anything.
Of course I know the day was not meant to solve anything in that sence, but it was purely made to gain some money of those who believe that this is the occation where you can have a free pass in showing love.
That's why I say "how Sad is that?"
- How sad is that people need a special day to show love!
- How sad is that for someone to gain money in order for you to be able to show your love?
- How sad is that, that we as people, think this is fine behavior?
now I might sound as coldhearted bitch who doesn't believe in love.
Those who know me know that's not the case.
I'm a big fan of love.
But I also have clear ideas of what I believe to be love..and what for me is just a random act of greed, sadness or desperate behavior.
I prefer to be true to myself then to someone else's thoughts.
I love LOVE.
But I try to express it every day, with those who deserve my love.
I try to strengthen all relationships I do not want to see lost.
I step out and smile to those who mean the most to me, making sure they know they are in my life.
That for me is what valentines day should be about.
that kind of love.
And it should be every day!!
- with love-
Tomorrow is Valentines day, a day I do not celebrate and think is such a fake holiday. But of course it affects me as my society has adopted this day, make it relevant and supports people to believe it's the only day to show and express love.
How sad is that?
Or at least I believe so..
One year ago I was in Paris and I wrote a little text about this holiday as well then.
What I was writing then was that for me this day is not only about Love as in romantic love. It's about love between the people you cheerish, the ones you want to have a strong relationship with and those that you want to show you love.
But in order for this to happen you can not use only one day - you have to be concistant in showing your love, being in love and make sure your love doesnt dissapear. One day is not solving anything.
Of course I know the day was not meant to solve anything in that sence, but it was purely made to gain some money of those who believe that this is the occation where you can have a free pass in showing love.
That's why I say "how Sad is that?"
- How sad is that people need a special day to show love!
- How sad is that for someone to gain money in order for you to be able to show your love?
- How sad is that, that we as people, think this is fine behavior?
now I might sound as coldhearted bitch who doesn't believe in love.
Those who know me know that's not the case.
I'm a big fan of love.
But I also have clear ideas of what I believe to be love..and what for me is just a random act of greed, sadness or desperate behavior.
I prefer to be true to myself then to someone else's thoughts.
I love LOVE.
But I try to express it every day, with those who deserve my love.
I try to strengthen all relationships I do not want to see lost.
I step out and smile to those who mean the most to me, making sure they know they are in my life.
That for me is what valentines day should be about.
that kind of love.
And it should be every day!!
- with love-
Monday, January 25, 2010
Looking in a personal mirror!
I'm currently sitting at my Aunt's place in the middle of nowhere in Denmark where I have the chance to have time of, study, relax and reflect.
Its so valuable to get this chance, to sit in the silence, to not think about what's going on out there in the world and just be.. alone with your tasks, your thoughts and yourself.
Last time I talked about challenges.. and how I value them as well. Because without them I can not see how people can become better,rise to another level and succeed.
Through challenges I learn.
Through reflection and time off I gain self awareness and rekindle my passion. without it I do believe I couldn't stay true to myself.
And without knowing who you are, how can you connect with others?
How can you find people who value what you have to share?
How will you know what you actually have to share with other people.
How can you built up relationships if you dont know who you are and what you are looking for?
These questions I think everyone needs to answer for themselves. And I think it's a must that people do so.
personal relationships are in many cases the base for personal success. You need people some of the times.
We need to keep that in mind.
At least I try to...
-with love-
Its so valuable to get this chance, to sit in the silence, to not think about what's going on out there in the world and just be.. alone with your tasks, your thoughts and yourself.
Last time I talked about challenges.. and how I value them as well. Because without them I can not see how people can become better,rise to another level and succeed.
Through challenges I learn.
Through reflection and time off I gain self awareness and rekindle my passion. without it I do believe I couldn't stay true to myself.
And without knowing who you are, how can you connect with others?
How can you find people who value what you have to share?
How will you know what you actually have to share with other people.
How can you built up relationships if you dont know who you are and what you are looking for?
These questions I think everyone needs to answer for themselves. And I think it's a must that people do so.
personal relationships are in many cases the base for personal success. You need people some of the times.
We need to keep that in mind.
At least I try to...
-with love-
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
with challenge comes a new beginning!
This week I faced a challenge I had never come across before. It scared the hell out of me but in a good way because I know, facing this, was bringing a new learning to me.
I have always looked at challenges as a good thing for me to take on and I feel sorry for those who avoid them, try to skate through life on easy street and never develop into this amazing person they could be.
I dont want that to happen to me.
Taking on this challenge ment for me to rethink my ways of learning, enhance my focus, increase my will power.
It showed me that I need to step up my game.
It helped me see how I can do that.
And now, as hard as it may seem, I feel more ready to take on next semester with my learnings from this one.
I feel in balance.
How many people can say that?
The reason why I wanted to blog about this is to try to make people see that challenges are hard but they bring always something new, something needed to your life.
They are there for a reason. You have to understand that.
Do you want to be plain, always the same?
Or do you want to live up to the potential that was made for you?
I have made my decision... I sure hope you have too and it's the right one for you!
-with love-
I have always looked at challenges as a good thing for me to take on and I feel sorry for those who avoid them, try to skate through life on easy street and never develop into this amazing person they could be.
I dont want that to happen to me.
Taking on this challenge ment for me to rethink my ways of learning, enhance my focus, increase my will power.
It showed me that I need to step up my game.
It helped me see how I can do that.
And now, as hard as it may seem, I feel more ready to take on next semester with my learnings from this one.
I feel in balance.
How many people can say that?
The reason why I wanted to blog about this is to try to make people see that challenges are hard but they bring always something new, something needed to your life.
They are there for a reason. You have to understand that.
Do you want to be plain, always the same?
Or do you want to live up to the potential that was made for you?
I have made my decision... I sure hope you have too and it's the right one for you!
-with love-
Friday, January 15, 2010
2009 in a nutshell :)
It‘s been some time since I wrote here. I‘ve been busy, reflecting and organizing myself. But now it‘s time to share my year, a year full of memorable events. When I look back at the year I see happiness. Finally :)
January:
- My brother and his girlfriend had a baby son :) A beautiful precious entered my life and changed it in so many great ways.
- I went back to Paris with a little sadness as that place hadn‘t been the best for me work wise.
- I chaired a national conference in Denmark. It was a great experience, I met so many great people and gained friends for life :)
- Gunnfríður and Anna came to visit me at the conference site to meet me and tried to learn a little about AIESEC. That meant a great deal for me.
February:
- I finally found an interesting masters program to take. In Copenhagen Business School.
- Went to Icelandic ladies night in Paris. Met many interesting women and had good food and drink – all Icelandic of course ;)
- Went to All American Reject concert – AMAZING!!
- I took a TOEFL test and did really well. It was needed for my Masters application.
- I flew to Copenhagen and came as a surprise to Gorjans party. Had great time with friends and enjoyed walking around in Copenhagen.
March:
- Handed in my application for CBS.
- My little nephew got a name. Unfortunately I couldn’t be there as I was in Paris.
- Did a lot of sightseeing in Paris. It’s a great city to live in.
- Celebrated St.Patricks day with great bunch of people in Paris. Great fun and of course all in green!
- Chaired a national conference in Poland with around 150 people attending. It was challenging but a huge learning experience. And of course quite a bit of polish alcohol.
April:
- I resigned from my role as WENA ER coordinator and left few days later back to Iceland.
- Anna and Gunnfríður came to visit me during Easter in Paris. We went to museums ( Louvre etc. ), went up the Eiffel tower, saw an Andy Warhol exhibition, ate chicken in front of a church and so much more.
- Came home and hugged my family. :)
May:
- Partied with my cousin Ingunn. We had so much fun playing Guitar hero.
- Went to see Maria’s Bachelor project from Listaháskólinn – A lady bug doorbell :)
- Started SEA SWIMMING!
- Joined a great group of people who decided to fight the current situation in Iceland and arrange free summer course to help people start their own business. Such a great initiative and I was so proud to participate.
- Attended seminar about the financial crisis and its affect on Africa.
- Went to Selfoss to a Brass band concert. The band I played with for so many years celebrated it’s birthday.
- Chaired a Develop Leaders day for AIESEC in Iceland.
June:
- Went to Skagaströnd for the “fishermen Day”. Partied heavily with great friends.
- Finally got a paid summer job :) at a youth hostel.
- Waited and waited to hear from CBS.
- Met up with my friends from Sauðárkrókur. We went out for dinner. I ended up having a strange but a great night with Anna Sjöfn and her husband Maddi.
July:
- Got accepted into CBS for Masters in Strategy, Organization and leadership :)
- Went whale watching with Hugrún. We saw few whales and it was great fun but a little windy ;)
- Went sea angling ( fishing at sea ) with Hilmar and Haukur. I didn’t catch anything but Hilmar did and as he was with me it automatically became mine as well :)
- Became a big Sólstafir fan and went to their concert.
- Went to Bolungarvík for the first time in 6 YEARS! It was great to be back there to remind me why I love this place.
August:
- Preparation for Denmark started.
- Had a big birthday dinner with my dad for my family. Also to say goodbye.
- Celebrated my 26th birthday and invited friends over for cakes in a birthday/goodbye event.
- Flew with XX kg to Copenhagen the day before introduction week started. It was hard to walk up to 4th floor with all that luggage but I managed.
- Intro week started and I got to know my fellow students.
September:
- school officially started with heavy reading. It was hard getting back into learning mood.
- Went shopping in Ikea with Margrét who actually saved my life there. But at least I got a bed to sleep in, chair and table and place for my clothes :)
- Bought a bike. Important while living in Copenhagen.
- Anna came over and we had a great Thursday night partying with her cousin Atli, and then a lovely relaxed weekend of fun.
- Went to Sólstafir’s concert in Copenhagen. Loved it!
October:
- Me and Line had our house warming party. Finally.
- Went bowling with my class mates.
- Vera Sólveig came to visit. We went to a strange Indian place, Gorjans goodbye party and relaxed.
November:
- Went to visit my aunt and her husband. I stayed there for a weekend. It was really nice.
- Chaired a team building for the Danish MC. Somehow I can not get out of this organization ;)
- Attended a startup meeting with an American entrepreneur who shared his experience. Very interesting and gave me some ideas.
- Applied for a student job. Got into the phone interview.
- Went to a gospel choir practice. Just for fun :)
- Margrét Björg and Margrét came for a visit. Went for the first time to the Tivoli. Bought a year pass. ;)
December:
- Went to a Julefrokost with my class. So much fun, so much snaps and not a happy day after ;)
- Was invited for another interview with the job. Super happy with that.
- Went around the city due to the COP15 UN conference here.
- Met friends who came to Denmark for this conference. It’s so great to meet people, connect on more intimate levels and strengthen your friendship. Great.
- Partied with my study group.
- Went to Christiania.
- Flew home to celebrate Christmas and New Years with the people I love, my family.
In short, my year of 2009 was eventful. I don’t regret anything and I feel I have learned more about who I am and what I stand for. It has reconfirmed how much I love my family and how glad I am for the amazing friends I have.
I couldn’t ask for anything more.
With this great year in my experience box, I feel comfortable about taking on the next one. I hope it will be even better.
-with love-
January:
- My brother and his girlfriend had a baby son :) A beautiful precious entered my life and changed it in so many great ways.
- I went back to Paris with a little sadness as that place hadn‘t been the best for me work wise.
- I chaired a national conference in Denmark. It was a great experience, I met so many great people and gained friends for life :)
- Gunnfríður and Anna came to visit me at the conference site to meet me and tried to learn a little about AIESEC. That meant a great deal for me.
February:
- I finally found an interesting masters program to take. In Copenhagen Business School.
- Went to Icelandic ladies night in Paris. Met many interesting women and had good food and drink – all Icelandic of course ;)
- Went to All American Reject concert – AMAZING!!
- I took a TOEFL test and did really well. It was needed for my Masters application.
- I flew to Copenhagen and came as a surprise to Gorjans party. Had great time with friends and enjoyed walking around in Copenhagen.
March:
- Handed in my application for CBS.
- My little nephew got a name. Unfortunately I couldn’t be there as I was in Paris.
- Did a lot of sightseeing in Paris. It’s a great city to live in.
- Celebrated St.Patricks day with great bunch of people in Paris. Great fun and of course all in green!
- Chaired a national conference in Poland with around 150 people attending. It was challenging but a huge learning experience. And of course quite a bit of polish alcohol.
April:
- I resigned from my role as WENA ER coordinator and left few days later back to Iceland.
- Anna and Gunnfríður came to visit me during Easter in Paris. We went to museums ( Louvre etc. ), went up the Eiffel tower, saw an Andy Warhol exhibition, ate chicken in front of a church and so much more.
- Came home and hugged my family. :)
May:
- Partied with my cousin Ingunn. We had so much fun playing Guitar hero.
- Went to see Maria’s Bachelor project from Listaháskólinn – A lady bug doorbell :)
- Started SEA SWIMMING!
- Joined a great group of people who decided to fight the current situation in Iceland and arrange free summer course to help people start their own business. Such a great initiative and I was so proud to participate.
- Attended seminar about the financial crisis and its affect on Africa.
- Went to Selfoss to a Brass band concert. The band I played with for so many years celebrated it’s birthday.
- Chaired a Develop Leaders day for AIESEC in Iceland.
June:
- Went to Skagaströnd for the “fishermen Day”. Partied heavily with great friends.
- Finally got a paid summer job :) at a youth hostel.
- Waited and waited to hear from CBS.
- Met up with my friends from Sauðárkrókur. We went out for dinner. I ended up having a strange but a great night with Anna Sjöfn and her husband Maddi.
July:
- Got accepted into CBS for Masters in Strategy, Organization and leadership :)
- Went whale watching with Hugrún. We saw few whales and it was great fun but a little windy ;)
- Went sea angling ( fishing at sea ) with Hilmar and Haukur. I didn’t catch anything but Hilmar did and as he was with me it automatically became mine as well :)
- Became a big Sólstafir fan and went to their concert.
- Went to Bolungarvík for the first time in 6 YEARS! It was great to be back there to remind me why I love this place.
August:
- Preparation for Denmark started.
- Had a big birthday dinner with my dad for my family. Also to say goodbye.
- Celebrated my 26th birthday and invited friends over for cakes in a birthday/goodbye event.
- Flew with XX kg to Copenhagen the day before introduction week started. It was hard to walk up to 4th floor with all that luggage but I managed.
- Intro week started and I got to know my fellow students.
September:
- school officially started with heavy reading. It was hard getting back into learning mood.
- Went shopping in Ikea with Margrét who actually saved my life there. But at least I got a bed to sleep in, chair and table and place for my clothes :)
- Bought a bike. Important while living in Copenhagen.
- Anna came over and we had a great Thursday night partying with her cousin Atli, and then a lovely relaxed weekend of fun.
- Went to Sólstafir’s concert in Copenhagen. Loved it!
October:
- Me and Line had our house warming party. Finally.
- Went bowling with my class mates.
- Vera Sólveig came to visit. We went to a strange Indian place, Gorjans goodbye party and relaxed.
November:
- Went to visit my aunt and her husband. I stayed there for a weekend. It was really nice.
- Chaired a team building for the Danish MC. Somehow I can not get out of this organization ;)
- Attended a startup meeting with an American entrepreneur who shared his experience. Very interesting and gave me some ideas.
- Applied for a student job. Got into the phone interview.
- Went to a gospel choir practice. Just for fun :)
- Margrét Björg and Margrét came for a visit. Went for the first time to the Tivoli. Bought a year pass. ;)
December:
- Went to a Julefrokost with my class. So much fun, so much snaps and not a happy day after ;)
- Was invited for another interview with the job. Super happy with that.
- Went around the city due to the COP15 UN conference here.
- Met friends who came to Denmark for this conference. It’s so great to meet people, connect on more intimate levels and strengthen your friendship. Great.
- Partied with my study group.
- Went to Christiania.
- Flew home to celebrate Christmas and New Years with the people I love, my family.
In short, my year of 2009 was eventful. I don’t regret anything and I feel I have learned more about who I am and what I stand for. It has reconfirmed how much I love my family and how glad I am for the amazing friends I have.
I couldn’t ask for anything more.
With this great year in my experience box, I feel comfortable about taking on the next one. I hope it will be even better.
-with love-
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